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weks…my biggest surprize ever….

i don’t know what to say or do guyz….

but it’s absolutely somethin’ i never forget for my entire life…

now i would understand how’s garbage can feels…they’re sucks….n stink too..

kasian juga yah…they been through it all their life…

btw…kuenya enak n it’s strawberry…hehehe…

but…though i love you so bad, guyz…

i would very much intend to kill ya’ll

if you all do the same thing to me all over again…

if you ask, i would defenetely say no thank you very much….

n u know what…u all deserve to get a grammy for your acting guyz….

penipu abiez…..masuk st. manis gi dech…..

mama…next couple of day i’ll turn 21…mature enough to be just like you… someone i admired a lot…it’s been a long time since our last confersation..how i miss that alot…,mama…i realized that i’ve done a lot of bad things to you…but i never say sorry, because you always forgive me…today..i would like to say the thing i should have said before…the thing i should say before you left me…just want to say..sorry for the stupid thing i wish i didn’t do but i do…and you are one of the best thing i’ve ever had…thing i never said to you…even at mothers day..luv you..

Sometimes I get so weird, I even freak myself out..
I laugh myself to sleep it’s my lullaby,
Sometimes I drive so fast, just to feel the danger
I wanna scream…It makes me feel alive…
Is it enough to love?..
Is it enough to breath?..
Somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed..
Is it enough to die?..somebody save my life
I’d rather be anything but ordinary please..
Let down your defences, use no common sense..
If you look you will see..that this world is this beautiful
accident turbulent suculent , I’m feeling permanent
No way I won’t taste it..dont wanna waste it away

I will remember you…will you remember me?….
Don’t let your life pass you by…weep not for the memories
I’m so tired, but I can’t sleep…
Standing on the edge, of something much too deep
Funny how I feel so much…But cannot say a word…
We are screaming inside…but we can’t be heard
So afraid to love you…more afraid to lose….
Clinging to a past, that doesn’t let me choose
But once there was a darkness, a deep and endless night…
Gave me everything you had,oh…you gave me light…

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it okay…
There’s always some reason.. to feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight
So tired of the straight line…and everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference, escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe…
In this sweet madness…oh…this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of the angel… far away from here…
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent revelrie
In the arms of the angel…may you find some comfort here…
You’re in the arms of the angel…may you find some comfort here…

wah..ternyata untuk menuju dunia kedewasaan memang benar2 banyak aral yang melintang…..
tugas kuliah gw banyak buangget seh…dosen gw sampe merasa bersalah tapi mau digimanain lagi…mang dah dari atasnya bukan manusia…tidak mengerti penderitaan yang disebabkan oleh kesewenag-wenangan mereka…argh….bisa2 gw mati muda neh…
stupa oh stupa…kuatkan hatiku supaya bisa menggarap mu dengan sukses…weks….otak gw dah terkontaminasi syndrom tertekan…hiks..hiks…T_T…
pusenk abiez….tapi top bgt dech poknya,….arsiteeek…strezz ampe mampuzz….!!!(seems like i’ve said it alot lately…hmmm…reasonable…red-mampuz)